I have 3 weeks off Harmony with Jean in Calgary. I'm enjoying the break although I still have homework to last me 3 weeks and I'm afraid I might need more help from Jean as this stuff is so very difficult!
After this time off I don't know if my husband will still be able to drive me into the city to go to my harmony lesson. I need to complete harmony to fully complete my grade 10 RCM degree.
Harmony is basically advanced music theory.
I still get anxious on left turns at high speed on the highway. I can't even reach the speed limit because I'm so afraid of speed.
I had an accident a few years ago. I was the only one in the van and no one else was involved. I hit someone's brick fence surrounding their property and my airbags deployed, slapping me in the face and scaring the bejesus out of me!
Since then my anxiety has only been getting worse and I can't get myself to my music lessons. I've quit 2 teachers ( piano pedagogy) , one in Calgary and one in Okotoks. I couldn't control my fear of driving the fast speed limit and doing left veers.
I've been in contact with my family doctor about my anxiety issues, which also shows up when I have to perform piano in front of an audience. I can't control my shaking of my leg and hands. And thereafter I don't perform as well as I should.
My doctor also mentioned that I should join a defensive driving course. I haven't yet because... yep you guessed it!. I"M AFRAID
I'll keep you posted as to what my decisions and actions are going to be concerning this matter.